Boy, this week has been another terrible week. I know people say that God never hands us more than we can handle, but I really am not sure how much more I can handle. The one thing I do know for sure is that my husband is NOT the person who I married 10 years ago and fell in love with. I am fed up with nit-picking on everything! I am fed up with the rudeness. If he takes the last Kleenex out of the box, the box is thrown on the floor. If he takes the last Coke out of the box, he throws the box on the floor. If the dogs get into the garbage, he asks why garbage is on the floor, but refuses to just take the two seconds to pick it up & put it back in the garbage. When he gets home from work (between midnight and 3:30 am usually), he insists on waking me up to do his nit picking. The other night, it was because apparently I didn't close his closet door tightly after hanging up laundry! Another night it was because I moved his collection of boxes to get at the baby swing that I was giving away to a friend with a new baby boy. He asked me, who was messing with his stuff! It was just empty boxes! Once I'm woken up, I find it hard to get back to sleep. It really irritates me that I'm woken up for something so stupid.
I've been looking for a job since September, after being a stay at home mom for over 10 years. I'm tired of being controlled. I just want to get out of here. But I am stuck....without a job. I have been looking everywhere but retail and fast food, but I guess its time to look at those options too.
Within the last couple of years, my husband has become obsessed with guns. He never owned one before, is not a hunter, but is now I guess you could say a collector. He's never been good with finances, but his new interest/hobby has become a big financial burden! Christmas was horrid, unable to buy presents, as our Christmas club was canceled by him! yet, he was able to spend the last but of money in the account buying high capacity magazines for his damn AR! So nice of him to think about himself for Christmas, while the rest of the family was starving over that holiday week! My family and friends think he is psycho, and are very concerned about our safety with all the guns and stockade of bullets he has! Yesterday, another package came by UPS, with TEN, yes TEN more high capacity cartridges in it! I was informed that there is another package, just like that one coming! Really? How many does he really need?
Financially, we're a mess, and always have been. He controls the money, the bills...everything in his name. A few years ago, he took a loan out of his 401k, to pay off his multitude of credit cards. in February 2011, he took out a home equity loan, I believe it was over $50,000 to pay off his credit cards again! Found out six months ago, he got another credit card, with a $7,500 limit. Apparently cranked that one up, as I found out that he got a new one again, this one with a $2500 limit supposedly, which is how he must be paying for his magazines! Although, I was told, that he was only using it to pay for gas once a month and he would be paying it off immediately, to rebuild his credit! That would be fine if that was the truth BUT he refuses to pay for my medical bills for the last year. He hasn't paid a dime towards any of them, in over 13 months! He also rarely pays a bill on time and pays late fees for just about everything, which really burns me, as its such a waste of money! That really add up every month! Especially over a year! I can't gather much of that as proof, because most of the bills are electronic, and everything I'd in his computer, which is password protected. I've never been trusted with access to his computer, but he has all info to mine, and I swear that he spies on mine & my daughters computer, phones, and tablets.
Speaking of spying, he has a video camera in the upstairs hallway, which can turn by remote on his phone, and he spies on the kids and I while he is at work! Control freak!
So welcome to my miserable life....more drama & venting to come....
